Avery Carter -

         It is strange that you say you do not like being lied to; yet, you lied to me and said it was your instinct.  Now you have become a traitor to your king, you are lying to him about your loyalties and you are lying to everyone else.  You do not know who or what is really right or why you have been lied to.

What a fantastic dilemma, it reminds me of Junius Brutus, slayer of Julius Caesar in the year 44 before Christ.  Will you kill your king?

         A Fallen angel is one that has directly disobeyed orders of our Father, usually more than once or has outwardly shown blasphemy.  If an angel disobeys an order for the first time he or she will most likely get demoted before Falling . . . which is what happened to me. Please, Avery Carter, if you should encounter an angel ever in your line of work, never assume he or she is good.

          Why are teenagers the primary choice for secret deadly missions?  Why not send adults who are more experienced and have more sense?  I, myself, was surprise when I came down to Earth and found that the way I was perceived by the human eye was as an older teenager.  Have the young been made to do the dirty work for the old?

         So, this Brant, the enemy of your king, captured you and he told you a story of your home that differed from the one you were used to and it changed you. What was the difference?  What made you so sure that you could trust him?  How do you know he wasn’t lying to you?

         My Father loves you more because he created you! Granted, he created the angels as well but a king loves his people more than he loves his servants.  That is really the only way I can explain it, don’t ask me to try to understand God.

         Everyone creates their own paradise, their own heaven and that is where they go when they die.  When I report to Heaven I go “back stage” if you will, where it’s all strategies, plans, life and death . . . it is far from paradise.  Earth is much simpler.

         What exactly is your meaning when you say that your parents job is to “keep you under control”?

         Alright, now onto the justified trouble.  I do not know how much of this you will understand but I shall try my best to explain . . .

         Death is real . . . well obviously but I mean that Death is an angel.  Some time ago I uncovered a plot to kill Death and if you kill Death you must take his place becoming the new Angel of Death.  With this there is power . . . and lots of it.  In the hands of a power hungry angel, the world could eventually collapse and be ruled by the new Angel of Death.  I could not let this happen and after a series of unfortunate events I concluded that the angel attempting to kill Death was one named Perseferious. So, I confronted him and we fought . . . and we caused an earthquake that shook the country you called Haiti that killed thousands.  In Heaven I tried to prove the Perseferious was trying to kill Death but the Order of the Saints and the Counsel of the Arch Angels didn’t believe me . . . well one did but his voice wasn’t enough.  I was demoted to the rank of Guardian Angel and sent to protect a young girl and her brother (who I forgot to mention in the last letter, excuse the mistake).  I still am trying to prove Perseferious’s guilt and with the help of Celsabourne I know I am close . . . but I fear it is about to be to late.  Being a Guardian Angel is also why I don’t get to see Celsabourne as much as I used to.  He is my brother and my closest companion.  He has saved me numerous times and I have done like wise for him.

         I am an angel so naturally I have to power to be anywhere at anytime when ever I want to.  I can control nature, kill demons, be invisible to humans and I can also kill angels.  It seems like a wonderful thing but I also have to keep the balance, save people who aren’t meant to die, re-correct destiny paths, cast out rogue angels, follow every order without question and never ever have doubt.  It is a lot to ask of any being.

         Why must you be born an orphan to be a spy? Also, why would you want to be a spy?

         Angel feelings are hard to explain; if a thousand humans died in a war I would be able to feel it from a million miles away. If a human watched a thousand people die right in front of them they might not ever get over it.

         No information is ever lost forever, Avery Carter, I believe the path to your parents is out there.  I’m sure you’ll find them.

 -Arlima

Arlima,

          Oh, I didn’t know that.... Here on earth angels are associated with only good.  Fallen?  What does it mean to for an angel to have fallen?

         By my home, I assume you mean all of Europe, and the reason I don’t see much outside of my country is because I’m in school and when I’m not in school, I’m on secret missions.  Well, my roommate was a fellow spy.  Yes, I trusted her very much because she has always had my back and so I do tell her about my moral dilemmas. She is very important to me because she is the closest thing I’ve ever had to a sister.

         Well, the parents I live with aren’t really my parents.  Sorry I lied about that, but at the time I didn’t know much about you and so I followed my instincts and lied.  As to why these parents don’t trust me, it’s a long story that will answer many of the questions you’ve asked and explain most everything...

I am a spy that works in small groups of four to six teenagers my age, and we have a supervisor (adult) who accompanies us on all our missions.  Almost a year ago, my group’s supervisor went missing.  All the kids that I live with who are spies like me (there are 12 of us), decided to go on a mission to help her – cause we had gotten a few stress call – but we had to leave about half of us behind.  My roommate was one of the people who volunteered to stay.  But on this mission we found our supervisor, captured and being held in the middle of the enemy’s camp. 

When trying to infiltrate the camp, we were caught.  We had been taught by those who trained us that the rebellion leaders were so cruel that they would torture any of us who they caught, but something completely different happened.  Brant didn’t even constrain us – he asked for our weapons and our supervisor told us it would be okay, so we all gave our weapons up. Then they explained everything to us – from the start of our small country’s history to now – but they gave us a completely different outlook.  I didn’t realize everything I had been doing was so so wrong.

Just a few weeks ago, my king sent in more spies to overrun the camp we were ‘trapped’ in and they brought us home again.  I passed a bunch of tests, so many I’m not even sure what half of them were supposed to prove, but they didn’t send me back to the academy or back to where my roommate Rosie is. They sent me to live with these ‘parents’ in the capitol city and now I’m being home schooled.  I think they are worried about my loyalty... which is something they should be worried about.  I don’t like to be lied to.

So that’s why my ‘parents’ don’t trust me.

Why would he love us more? How are you so different that he couldn’t love you as much as us? I don’t understand! It would seem that angels are perfect.

How is your home different than the heaven I would go to? Why wouldn’t you call it paradise? It’s better than living on earth, right?

Well (I feel like I am telling you so much in this letter alone that I am being very vague to leave room for other questions J), You see I was created to stop the King’s enemy.  That is my only purpose and mission, and if I die doing it than it is an honorable death – or at least it would have been a year ago.  They have practically brainwashed the whole army of his personal spies into thinking that what they are doing is right, but it really isn’t.  I know there is nothing I can do because I didn’t know that what I was doing was wrong – killing and plundering – but now I want to fix things.  I have joined the enemy of the King who are actually fighting for good.

Why don’t you see Celsabourne much? What is your relationship with him like? Who is he to you?

Why don’t you like having all that power? Can you define this power that you have? What is this justified trouble you keep mentioning and why has it lead you to protecting such a young girl?

What do you mean when you say that you only feel hurt when a traumatic event occurs? How come humans wouldn’t be able to recover?

Yes, my parents know very well what my job is and they are actually very high and important spies as well, they just don’t go on missions like I used to. Their mission is to keep me under control.  And there is only one way to become a spy for King Julian the Great (or so he thinks) is to be born an orphan.  I was given to an orphanage at a very young age and from that moment; I began training to be a spy.  Of course as an adolescent I had to pass a test to actually become a spy, but from my birth I was selected to be a spy.

Sometimes I wonder if my real parents are still out there but there is no way to know – those files are destroyed.

                                             Avery Carter